Monday, August 9, 2010

Waiting...

I thought we had a name picked out for our daughter ( although we haven't shared it yet) but I may change her name to Patience. Ok, not really but sometimes it feels like I should. I am not complaining, don't get me wrong but it seems like I must still not have the patience thing down because God seems to continue to want to teach me patience. Throughout this journey of embryo adoption and subsequently pregnancy it seems like there has just been a lot of prayer and waiting, waiting and prayer. Waiting to get a date to go down to Tennessee for our evaluation and then for our embryo transfers, dreaded two week waits for pregnancy tests after our transfers, disappointments after two failed transfers. Lot of prayers, waiting and prayers. After I got pregnant with this precious baby girl there was waiting but it wasn't hard. I enjoyed the experience of pregancy. I enjoyed seeing my belly grow as I knew there was a miraculous life growing inside of me. I knew that there was lots to be done before I felt "ready" for her arrival so the waiting was not hard and prayers of course were for her to continue to grow and thrive and be healthy. As we approached her due date time really seemed to fly. I thought for sure that she was going to come early. But saturday was her due date which has come and gone with no signs of our baby joining us yet. Now the waiting is getting hard again. Of course I know that the wait is worth is and just like everything else God has a plan for this little life. He already knows the second she is going to be born. And more than anything else I just want her to be born healthy but I am getting anxious to meet her and the waiting is getting harder and harder. I am so excited to see what she looks like. So excited to hold her and kiss her for the first time. So excited to see Josh meet his second beautiful daughter. And so excited for Raegan to meet her little sister for the first time. I praise God for this life and I pray that she will join us soon in God's perfect timing.

If she doesn't decide to come on her own then I will be induced on August 13th (which also happens to be Pop Pop's birthday!). They will have me come in the night before to be prepped and then I will be induced in the morning. There is a chance that what they give me the night before will induce labor as well ( which I am kind of hoping happens since it's a little more natural than Pitocin). So if our baby girl doesn't come before the 13th then it looks like she will be sharing a birthday with Pop Pop. I will post here again if anything happens before then but if not be sure to check our other blog www.growingthroughadoption.blogspot.com where I will post once our baby girl arrives!

Thank you to everyone who has supported us and loved us during this journey!